I was born blinking in blinding bright,
meek and morose and mortally wounded.
I have spent my entire life thereafter
blinking, trying to adjust to the light.
I had a whole puzzle splayed out before me;
the white room’s door closed until I fixed it.
But if I cannot see, how can I place things
together? What if I blink and miss a spot,
a crucial hint, the kingdom’s key? What if I
lose it in the crystal-clear carpets?
I am the princess, poised for perfection.
I have to build the palace.
So I whet my tongue and teeth on words and wonder; I get paper cuts from the stained glass walls when I shatter them with stones.
I let blood stain the looking-glass pale pink;
I build my shelter in the image of guts and glory, magnificent and mystical and mortally
wounded by the fact that red is not the
rainbow nor the full spectrum of existence.
So I try again, but with a different color.
I bleed my life into the making of a home.
But can I truly thrive upon a sacrificial pyre?
Is this just another bust for a wolf-crier?
With hands rubbed raw, sweat and salt pour into the painted patio railing. I straighten out
the horizon in its frame of the windowpane
so that the future flows into the vivacious
valley of dreaming dolls, like me, fast asleep,
aiming to ascend to the field of shining stars above their patched roofs and blotchy faces and eyes running with the rivers in the
greener grasses that make up the picket-fenced front lawns.